Real world, a year later


I entered the real world as a fresh college graduate a year ago. I got my first job, moved to a place I’ve never lived before, and started life as a real adult. I had no idea what to expect. To this day it still amazes me how I made those life-changing decisions in the short span of a month before I graduated, without really knowing what I was getting myself into. It’s crazy how a drastic change in life can happen in such a short time.

It turns out that moving up from LA to the Bay Area was a great decision. I was lucky enough to find a group of friends that I love, despite not really knowing anyone prior to my move. I work at a small, growing company with great people, and I get to travel for work to cool places sometimes. I live in an area that’s vibrant and techie with decent (and overpriced) food choices, which pretty much is all it takes to satisfy a nerd and foodie like me. I took weekend trips to SF, bar hopped in Downtown San Jose, tanned on the beach in Santa Cruz, lied in fresh powdery snow in Tahoe, and explored the natural wonders of Northern California.

Life is pretty good up here in the Bay.

But after all the excitement of moving to a new place faded away, I found myself re-living the crisis I had when I was a senior in college..the “wtf-am-I-doing-with-my-life” crisis.

Because let’s face it, I cannot be content with my life as an aspiring over-achieving Asian. The truth is that after a year of entering into the real world, I’m starting to question if this is where I want to be in my life and career. I realized I have no concrete plans and goals for the next few years of my life, and this scares the hell out of me. When I was in school, there was always a clear goal to achieve. In high school, my goal was to get into a good college by struggling through AP classes and taking SAT prep. In college, it’s making sure that I can graduate with a good GPA and find a decent job to survive after graduation. But what happens after that? Do I keep working or go back to school? Do I stay at a job or switch my career path? Do I even know what I want? What am I doing? What is even the meaning of life? These are some of the questions that have been running through my mind in the past few months.

The first half of 2016 was a difficult period for me mentally, because I spent a lot of time re-evaluating my identity, beliefs, and relationships. I came to realize that growing into adulthood doesn’t just mean becoming financially independent, but also involves a lot of self reflection and understanding of who I am as an individual. This is why I wanted to start this blog — I want to document my journey of finding out who I am and what I want to be, and share some of the things I’ve learned along the process. It’s not going to be easy, but I hope my experiences resonate with some people and maybe even help those of you who are facing the same wtf crisis that I’m going through.

The journey of entering into the real world starts here, a year later.